I can't move on...

because i dont want to

This post is dedicated to Zaina tararararara bc they hear me talk abt him a lot ❤️

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I want to move on, i tell myself

i want to forget him entirely,

wipe him from my mind,

forget he ever existed

forget i ever fell in love with him,

i tell myself

its been 9 months, i really should move on

and i tried,

tried to erase him from my mind

but it never works, no matter how much i try

and i then realised

i dont actually want to get over him

i keep my memories of him alive in my brain

i tell myself i want to move on, but i wont

not until i stop thinking about him at random parts of the day

not until i make peace with the fact i will (probably) never see him again

* ‧̍̊˙· 𓆝.° ｡˚𓆛˚｡ °.𓆞 ·˙‧̍̊

Until the next wave of motivation,

Aaisha