Guilt

it always stays with me

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i don’d know why i feel guilt all the time

it stays and festers

lingering under my skin

growing with every move

It accumulates until its too big to ignore

i cry until i can no longer feel it

yet the cycle continues

crying to release it

yet it continues to grow.

i dont even know what im guilty about

yet its always there are never leaves.

im okay while i ignore it,

yet once it grows and takes over my thoughts,

the only thing that can suppress it is salty tears

ugly crying

just to get it out my system

i hope it allows me to forget all my memories of him

i hope it washes all the mistakes

i hope it washes me away

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this is dramatised btw - to an extent

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Until my next wave of motivation…

Aaisha

࿔･ﾟ﹏𓊝﹏༄.°